Its the end of year. Christmas has just pass by, and its time for me as well to pick myself to get prepare for 2009. In the events of picking up myself, a few invitations just simply pop up, clashing my usually peaceful year end. One, is my primary school reunion party and a Christmas party i’m suppose to help up for the sunday school kids. The both fall on the same day, and on the same time.
I had all my intentions to meet up with my old pals which I’ve not seen for years since I left for my secondary school education. But on the other hand I had this feeling of staying with my parents to help out in the Christmas day party. Dad, who understands my conflict, allows me to choose between the two. After all, both are a lifetime thing, and a rare chance. But somehow I’m stuck in the crossroad, hardly able to choose between the two. Until this very day I still cant answer it, and the event is going to happen tomorrow. Literally I’m still confused of which I’ll choose, but I guess the answer lies tomorrow when I’ll be forced to choose between the two.
The other one is camp reunion with my team mates and fellow friends. I really have NO idea if I could come or I could not. Deep down I really wan to come along, but after what dad say bout “enjoy enough and now is time to get serious” thing makes me rethink. I cant go against dad cuz I have to say apart from God he is like the next wisest guy I’ve ever known (cant compare to the other prophet in the bible cuz I dun know them that well) and its hard to disobey dad too (it makes me feel so guilty like I’m a murderer if i do anyway) cause of my own conscious. This builds up such conflict in me to think of other ways. I know transportation will be my no2 prob after my dad, because I’m still “minor” and I haven get any driving license. So I have to say its almost a 0.1% chance of me going.
Only by sheer luck I’ll be able to go to the reunion party. And I doubt mom and dad will approve. So right now in this mist I’m totally confused of the choices ahead of me. I don’t know which to choose, and I don’t want to dissipation both side, What should I do?
This reminds me of one of the experience I had in bible camp
Memories return~
Boys girls in conflict..me as props team (leader? I don’t know) has to hear the opinion of how the script writer wish for their props, the girls said they wanted their way, and the guys say another thing. both side wanted their own way, and I’m (and the rest of the props member) are stuck at a cross fire, unsure of the side we should side on [but at the end of the day I did not follow both side but go my own. lol~]
What ever that Is gonna happen, I really pray for God’s guide to help clear my mind, and to shw me the way and lead me to a path that is gonna be ok.
4 Show me your ways, O LORD,
teach me your paths;
5 guide me in your truth and teach me,
for you are God my Savior,
and my hope is in you all day long.
Pslam 25: 4-5
