I have a very bad habit of getting heated up over some silly matter. And silly matter sometimes could become so big due to the reason of starting an argument.
Being youngest and still staying with my parents, I found out I’ve alot of disadvantage compare to my brother who is way older. Half the time he gets his way and if he did not, he’ll insist till he gets it! This become so frustrating for a person like me who is pretty impatient and wants things my way too.
An example of silly matter we argue over today was the Internet connection problem today. Me and my bro have funny connection, when ever he has problem in connection, I do not, but when his connection is working perfectly, mine is not. This makes it really frustrating for both of us who wish to obtain the best Internet connection for ourselves. My bro suggest this: Lets restart the connection. I was like, hey what?! I got a perfect connection! Whats the matter with you destroying it? And I was like insisting there is no reason for him destroying the connection, after all, the past few days i had bad connection when he has a good connection to the Internet. I insisted my way of not resetting it, but as usual, he’s near the router, and here it goes *tick!* the connection has been reset. I get really frustrated. Now i am, Currently stuck at a lousy connection which i cant really access any place.
Now when I don’t get my way, I get angry. I started a heated argument which land us noway. I did not get a reset connection, juz as my brother get, but what I got here is a lousy connection and a bad mood. Yeah bad mood. I praticially yell at my brother for getting his way and forcing him to off his msn for ‘revenge’ How I did it? saying craps like telling him his msn is using some Internet connection which use away some of the bandwich. ANd when he refused, I spam his msn and making sure he go offline. Well I got what I want, he appear offline I guess. But I’m happy over such silly stuff.
After I cool down, which was surprising fast, I realized how much anger can cause a person to think sinfully. I made the people around me hurt just because of my own spitefulness. If I was calm about all this, this wont happen. In a short moment, all this anger flew away, and I found out we are merely kids who go fighting over some toy but not the Lord. Again I had to say, we should always be cool and calm over small dispute so that troubles wont float up once more.
The feeling when i came back to realize God was near make me feel so calm about what happen. It doesn’t really matter if I did not get a good connection or not, but At least to know my mistake so that I’ll try not to repeat it once more. just as the Verse in the bible say “Mar 4:39 And he arose, and rebuked the wind, and said unto the sea, Peace, be still. And the wind ceased, and there was a great calm. “
Lastly, a song to hear
